Monday, December 27, 2004
Tsunamis
My cousins were down in Colombo on Saturday. We were planning on a girls night out which was unfortunately ruined by the one who claimed to be tired and sleepy after having missed two night’s sleep in noisy airports. As she was the oldest (mother of three) and the baby sitter - in spite of looking the youngest of us all – we had no choice but to give in. but we promised ourselves a treat the next day.
Well, only the next day wasn’t anything like we expected it to be. Two of the cousins had sprung out of bed early enough to get to Odel on time. About me – I was at home attending to a few neglected chores. My dad said we’ll do a one day’s trip down south. So finally something was coming out of my vacation besides boring shopping, and eating out.
And then the phone rings and I hear the chirpy voices of the folks at home. Only it wasn’t very good news at the other end. The phone line seemed to be busy for what seemed like ages. I was finally able to get my hands on it, to call a friend from school. I was trying to get through to her to get her to join our little trip. She didn’t believe a word of what I had to say. “April’s over” that’s all she said. Angry and unable to justify what I had said (news hadn’t reached the TV as yet) I hung up half hoping that a few sea waves would make it to her place at Wellawaththa. They (the waves) were just a little far away when I was thinking that. When I called again… the phone’s only rang.
At home… the relatives near the wild oceans were moving in and we were making arrangements for lunch and the night’s stay. My dad left to pick them up. He met with an accident was turned back by the heavy traffic, blocking the roads. So my grandma, aunt and kids were somewhere out there finding their way to a safer location. We just had to sit and wait and pray. The scenes were on TV by then and they were traumatizing. They arrived. I was shouting at the top of my voice for people not to panic. We were trying to get through to relatives in Galle. Sometimes the phones rang… Most time there were no connections. My uncle was in Trincomalee, they were rushing back. My mum kept talking about how we were planning on a vacation together and we couldn’t join simply because dada had no leave.
Me - being the one that is crazy about water and the sea – was disappointed by its unruly behaviour. Another “why” that we cannot answer!
Something’s going on inside the earth and people predict this will re-occur. Thousands of children and women didn’t have the strength to survive it. We are now trying to help the ones who were fortunate enough to escape, to get back on their feet while taking precautions. This day we shall remember for a long time.
Friday, December 17, 2004
+ Cross Roads +
The biggest thing in my mind these days is getting ahead with my higher education from this point forward. It’s been an year since the degree was over and I’ve been doing nothing but thinking.. “where from here?” I hate it at the cross roads cause decisions and fate don’t go together. Anywayz, plans are needed for one to go on.
Adopted
Once there were two women who never knew each other
One you do not remember the other you call mother
Two different lives shaped to make you one
One became your guiding star. The other became your sun.
The first one gave you life, and the second taught you to live it.
The first gave you a need for love, the second was there to give it.
One gave you a nationality, the other gave you a name.
One gave you talent, the other gave you aim.
One gave you emotions, the other calmed your fears.
One sought for you a home that she could not provide, the other prayed for a child and her hope was not denied.
And now you ask me through your tears
The age-old question, unanswered through the years
Heredity or environment. Which are you a product of?
Neither my darling. Neither.
Just two different kinds of love.
Teacher Debbie Moon’s first graders were discussing a picture of a family. One little boy in the picture had different colour hair from the other family members.
One child suggested that he was adopted, and a little girl named Jocelynn Jay said, “I know all about adoptions because I’m adopted”
“What does it mean to be adopted?” asked another child.
“It means,” said Jocelynn, “that you grew in your mother’s heart instead of her tummy.”
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
The End!
As I watch sitting at the doorway of the world
The setting of the sun
Only to wake another land
My cheeks upon my knees
And my head upon my heart
There on the shore
I scrape into my pale hand
The golden brown grains of sand
To which life was blown into
The grains which cloth my spirit and soul
The only matter that will accept my lifeless body
The salt of the sea
The warmth of the soil
The cooling sky
The only comfort
And as I sit here
I cannot help but wonder
How to put an end…
To the tragedy and trauma
Of the truth of this drama
Tomorrow will be another busy day
When I will come home just like everyone else will
Having nothing but four walls that can’t speak
And when night falls to bring the darkness so still…
It all comes back gushing
Burning the soul and melting the heart
All the joy and fun; All the lies and pain
Being cheated and stabbed
And treated like I’m nothing
Reward for the love that I so generously shed
All along it was her and not me
That’s not what really matters
What matters is he never told me
All the time he spoke of the ends of the worlds
And the mysteries of molecules and genes
And he never said a word
And I cared for him too much to see it coming
Crying out to the voices that needed help
Singing to children that needed a friend
Giving to the poor
And smiling for the deaf
And he left
With all the gifts I gave him lying there
on the floor… for days
I wonder how is heart let him hurt mine
How I could not see the falsehood in his eyes
Leaving everything behind, to him I turned
And now he’s gone, no where to be seen
Leaving me with this pain and taking my joy
Promises so pleasing
Gifts worth a fortune
Words of praise
And songs of bliss
In this rotten woeful world,
I am here without having been given a choice
Now I sit helpless with a heart-full of memories
I know there’s nothing left that I could do
To bring him back
I wait for the day that I die
Never wanting to continue this miserable circle of life
He let me down
And he broke his word
But still for some reason I cannot hurt him back
God, take care of him
And I hope he will be happier now, than
When he was with me.
I’m holding my head high and trying to walk again
And as I limp my way back to the old world
Having left with no choice
I turn back once to look at the black sky
And in that darkness, I still see the stars smiling back at me…
Is there any hope left?
In this miserable world…
And in my search of myself
I find, there’s nothing worth crying about
It’s me… and only me
The reason he left!
wasted
I think it is such a waste to have big brains and sit down under them not making a difference to the world. Passive observers are not really smart. They are cowards and not smart enough to raise issues or make a fuss about it. To make things worse they advice other people to follow the sickness. You weird creatures that think that sitting around telling other people what to do better give it a break and practise some of the preaching once in a while.
Sunday, December 12, 2004
The Convocation
Saturday, November 20, 2004
Hi People
The Dental Appointment
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
A lecture on Business Ethics
“If you were working for MIT and your spouse for Virtusa, and your company had come up with a unique recipe of creating a world class application would you share it with your family over dinner?”
To my surprise most of the students said that they wont. This proves that good people are still around. (Debatable) However the real debate started when the argument arose as to whether the spouse is more important than the company or vice versa. I guess the answer to which we may never know…
Caution – Danger Ahead!
I did not bring any work home, today. A little tired of it. It is a pity that even my blog is not in my control and that I can not say what I want to. I don’t understand why there has to be so much of control and rigidity. I want to be born in a planet in which nobody cares and where there’s no such thing as wrong and right but just everything just neutral. Will there be any chaos then? Sometimes I try to imagine what death is like. Would it be relieving or would it take us to something worse? What is wrong with this world? Why do people see everything so negatively? I’m tired. There’s no cause to this mess and no end to this cycle.
Friday, November 05, 2004
Miscommunicated conclusions!
Monday, November 01, 2004
Adios... and The Last one...
Friday, October 29, 2004
To all the parents out there
Life is not a tempest, nor is it a midsummer night’s dream. It is just a comedy of errors so take it as you like it.
Thursday, October 28, 2004
Killer Secrets!
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
The Month of Self-control
Fasting is for the total purification of the mind body and soul coupled with the right intention. Fasting did not originate with Islam. The Jews and the Christians were involved in fasting much before the coming of Islam. Islam however formalised and made it obligatory upon every healthy adult Muslim to observe fasting – controlling one’s self from worldly pleasure from dawn to dusk – and devoting one’s self in worship in the true spirit of Islam. Worship is not limited to mosques and prayer-places. It is rather the day-to-day life that one leads righteously. Although Ramadhan is known as the holy and blessed month, charity, prayer and all other forms of worship (doing good) is not limited to just these 30 days of the year; and should be enforced in every single day of our lives. Some people believe that religion is for the less intelligent well... each one is entitled to his/her own opinion. However, all religions speak of good things and the closer you stay to it, I guess the safer you are...
"Verily truth is from your lord, let him who will believe and let him who will disbelieve" (Quran 18:29)
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Is variety really the spice of life?
With so much of ‘unusuality’ around, it’s amazing how everything becomes so usual and so boring with time. Even the things that mattered so much, don’t matter anymore.
Is it because new variety replaces the old?
Is too much variety good or bad?
Why are so many bored with blogging?
Why does time wear away everyting
Will I ever know the answers?
Is it worth the thought?
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
dont tell me - "Thats just the way things are!"
The sad fact of life is that you try to do your best and be as good as you can but a tiny mistake can ruin your entire reputation – your entire life. What is reputation anyway? Other people’s opinion about you? If its just opinion not based on any grounds then why bother about it in the first place?
As a believer of life after death, I think that there will come a time when people’s opinion will not matter. Gods knows us inside out and I don’t think will need any assistance in people reassuring Him. So if someone thinks your bad ask him/her to be direct and try to correct yourself. The objective should be to correct as many as possible. No one is perfect. So Piumie, if people say things behind your back it’s only because they don’t have the guts to face you or the facts to prove what they say. I have been direct with many people and have as a result got myself into very odd positions. Even lost good friends. However, I think that is far better than sticking with the silent majority or being a pretender. How was Sunday anyway?
My heartfelt congratulations go out to anyone out there who is trying to make a better day for him/herself or for someone else. If you haven’t been reading ‘Chicken Soup for the Soul’ its time you started or you would be missing out on something really good.
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
why did man divide the land into blocks?
Its just a crazy world powered by machines and ruined by men!
Sunday, August 01, 2004
Leave me Alone!
The night is born
But thoughts don’t seem
To leave me alone.
I’m not sure, very
What to expect tomorrow
So my head I bury
Under my pillow
Night dies
Dawn breaks
I’m wishing it takes
My thoughts with it.
Day is here
And the birds sing
Yet it’s only fear
That my thoughts bring
Drizzle or Drought
The thoughts die not.
Work or play
The thoughts stay
Carved in my heart
No end, no start
No freedom from my thoughts
No matter how many wars I’ve fought
How many days?
How many years?
How many Prayers?
How many tears?
They’re always there
Frightening like the mountains
Free like the rivers
Down my spine
Runs the shivers
How will I send
…my thoughts away?
When will it end?
What may I pay?
It’s not easy to try
I shut my eyes to the pain
I don’t want to cry
But the thoughts… they’re stay’n
I hate to mourn
Go away!
Leave me alone
Go away please
Give me some peace
But deep in my soul
Like molten coal
You’re always there
Ever so cold
Taller than the Everest
Longer than the Nile
No, peace, no rest
No bliss, no smile
What does it take
To chase you away?
My mind up, I make
But the thoughts always stay
Greater than the Niagara Falls
Stronger than the Pyramid walls
Carved in my heartNo end, no start!
Thursday, July 29, 2004
Hurts!
it's not sweet
...anymore.
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
We are the world!
To make the world a better place?
But we can’t!
Why?
Coz we the worlds so big and we are so small
Coz we have hearts that are hard
Coz we have more bad than good in us
Coz we live in a world that is realistic and not dreamy
So why not try to do little things
Like may be…
Avoid using plastic and polythene
Or even drop a smile for an old lady
Little things that cost nothing
May save a life today
And leave some hope for tomorrow
Sunday, July 18, 2004
I am just another visitor in this world...
I have to learn to be tougher and stronger and I guess these are things that one would not want to publish. Growing up is all about learning about when and how to be responsible and careful and attentive. I wish I could go back to the days when I could just walk out of the house and climb my favourite tree and spend hours reading my favourite book. Hmm… it really was nice. I remember when I was little how I use to run into dada’s room and sit on his chair with my feet barely reaching the ground, wanting to be CEO someday. Dreams… just my dreams.
Home is almost as, or even more hectic than work. The parents always find matters that we need to improve on. I appreciate that. It is the mode of communication that is important. Things at office are slowly improving. Quite a bit of adjusting on my part is required. I totally disagree with theory X. It simply won’t work for me. I think people have to tailor make the mannerism in which they deal with different people. Some people need to get it into there wise heads that world is not made of equals. Effective internal marketing is as or even more important than external marketing. Charity begins at home!
Friday, July 16, 2004
Dear Me!
I am sure my daily journal is getting jealous of blogspot and blog.com (not to mention my little cute organizer) eh... I don’t know why girls have to be so kiddish sometimes. But as they say you mustn't let the child in you die off too soon.
Anywayz, its late and I have a big day tomorrow so I better go to bed. I kinda miss studying and my project now. (I know I'm crazy but aren't we all?) The human is never satisfied. If he is, there's no point being alive.
I see all the mountains and rivers ahead of me and I'm so scared that I want to turn back and run away.... but I will climb and I will swim until all the ligaments in me tear away into pieces.
Insha Allah, there is something coming that is beyond the comprehension of every soul - living or dead - And when that thing comes, whatever it is; we will all have the answers to all the whats and whys and hows that have crossed our minds a million times. so until that... my friends, it is a tale of waiting... waiting and waiting...
Monday, July 12, 2004
My Advice to the world
• Always write your thoughts and feelings down – believe me - it helps!
• Meditate – even if the only time you have to do it, is in the bathroom.
• Know yourself well and don’t have others tell you about you
• Sing aloud once in a while
• Scream
• Go on vacations and have a good dip!
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
Silly me!
The human is never satisfied, if he is... he rather be dead!
Advice is appreciated but not necessarily taken into account... ;P
Sunday, July 04, 2004
My opinion about people
I will help them,
I will ask for their help if I need it
But I will not live my life to please them
... and I DO NOT CARE what they think about me becoz I know myself a lot better than they do!