Saturday, November 20, 2004

Hi People

Since of late, I’ve been up to quite a few things. Oh the graduation ball, the marking, the preparing, the convocation, the team meetings, the friends’ occasions, the family occasions, the occasional singing, writing, photography and the like. I am very slightly impressed by movies that don't move me. Photography runs in the blood. I like positioning things in different ways and taking pictures of them. I have a huge collection. There are minor details that you would never notice unless and until you see them in a pic. Often too marvellous to be ignored. Like for instance I took for granted most of the flowers that grow wild in our garden in my dad’s home-town in Kandy until I got some pictures and framed them up. It is a pity that little magical things all around us often go unnoticed. And oh the pets at home – so adorable to watch and photograph. Specially when they are playing or asleep or at a meal – that covers almost everything, doesn’t it? Wild animals are glorious too, but unfortunately I can not get close enough. Did I mention that I love lions and elephant and cats too? Pictures do speak a thousand words. They can bring back to life a forgotten moment or a lost friend. You can relive your whole life through an old album. (Have you tried looking at b&w pictures with grandparents?) Most people remember pictures a lot better than words. They are a lot of use when it comes to sign boards, advertisements and desktop icons. If only we paused to think…

The Dental Appointment

I’ve been visiting the dentist who unfortunately asks me questions that I can’t answer with my mouth wide open. And he’s been hurting me. Wonder what he looks like. He’s always got half his face hidden. And the mother thinks it’s time I learnt cooking and engage in a few more chores around the house. I’m kinda running out of excuses. (It’s not like I can’t cook at all but I don’t like being told around) I really don’t have time for anything more than the usual things that one must do. So when I’m told to put the cooker off that contains the dhal; I end up putting off the kettle before the water boils. Bad eh? Not to mention the thunder that follows about the rice being burnt or the water needing to be re-boiled. (Did I start with rice or dhal?) Too much on my head. To heavy to carry around. Have to sit down and think of a solution…

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

A lecture on Business Ethics

I was doing a lecture on business ethics and I asked my students this…

“If you were working for MIT and your spouse for Virtusa, and your company had come up with a unique recipe of creating a world class application would you share it with your family over dinner?”

To my surprise most of the students said that they wont. This proves that good people are still around. (Debatable) However the real debate started when the argument arose as to whether the spouse is more important than the company or vice versa. I guess the answer to which we may never know…

Caution – Danger Ahead!

I didn’t realize how much I had lost touch or how remote I had become in a matter of seven months. This used to be my home. The place where my heart was. My visit yesterday made me feel like a total stranger in a lost planet. There were all kinds of feelings and thoughts that were going through my head. My mind took a walk back into the days when there were so many things to talk about - time was all that we needed. Things to talk and songs to sing. The moments, when our minds were so free yet so heavy. I was patient enough to let people take their anger and stress out on me. I was smart enough not to talk but to listen. I was sad; just enough not to show it. Sometimes I feel terribly wrong. Wishing that I had thrown a few pebbles on the road that brought me here. I need the moon to shine with its borrowed light so I can find my way back home. But where is this home?

I did not bring any work home, today. A little tired of it. It is a pity that even my blog is not in my control and that I can not say what I want to. I don’t understand why there has to be so much of control and rigidity. I want to be born in a planet in which nobody cares and where there’s no such thing as wrong and right but just everything just neutral. Will there be any chaos then? Sometimes I try to imagine what death is like. Would it be relieving or would it take us to something worse? What is wrong with this world? Why do people see everything so negatively? I’m tired. There’s no cause to this mess and no end to this cycle.

Friday, November 05, 2004

Miscommunicated conclusions!

Ok, so I managed to get someone - I wasn’t referring to -, actually worked up a little. If you’re wondering what that was all about, it was about joining the academic sector. Didn’t wana blog in sometime but didn’t really think that my blogs were being read. Anyway there’s not much of point in reading each others blogs unless you actually learn something new. However it is interesting to find out what’s going on inside people. Perception and first impressions are so wrong sometimes. So coming back to the point of joining the academic sector… hmm yeah I did think about all the possible outcome. About academically inclined people being stagnant and theoretical. But on the other hand where would people be if there were no acs? I know that, that’s a pretty soppy thought. People don’t necessarily end up here coz they don’t have jobs else where. The talent of imparting knowledge to others is rare and greatly wanted. There are many who are good at learning things but just a few who are actually good at teaching it. Anyway I believe that the best person to judge a lecturer is the student itself. As for me.. I enjoy it – a passion by all means and that’s one of the reasons I’m here. I used to do it ever since about the sixth grade. My final year project was also based on an academic institution. The "almost" regret was for some other reasons - discouragement from people and the like. But who cares about people anyway? That’s supposed to be me. "Advice is appreciated but not necesserily taken into account. "Only, it’s hard to sometimes implement. Should go back and read my blog about people! For now I have some marking to do and the vivas really manage to get me down… ta ta!

Monday, November 01, 2004

Adios... and The Last one...

The previous blog was a result of a wise person saying something that was rude enough to hurt us. A person who forgot how he crawled, the moment he started running. We always stood by him faithfully. We put up with his rather amateurish criticisms and never went behind his back. If there was ever an issue we would always confront him directly even if it meant getting into his bad books... even if it meant earning a bad reputation for ourselves from the people around us. His faults we hid and his strengths we highlighted while looking up towards him as a fatherly figure who was there for us as a friend when the path was too thorny and as a guiding light when the path was to dark. But I guess one can not always expect people to be grateful in return. I was too emotionally attached in the moment that nothing made sense. I guess we all have our emotional weaknesses that erupt at sometime or the other. If you are ever treated in a way that you do not deserve just let it go and play the “I don’t care” attitude. Coz it’s really not worth caring about. Happy endings, flying carpets, walls made of chocolate and crystal castles only exists in fairy tales. All of a sudden I feel like I have travelled about a decade behind in time. I have to admit that I’m pretty embarrassed about the absurdities and immaturity in some of the past blogs I’ve posted. I am not going to blog for some time from now onwards. Some things really lose their shine with time! Good bye dear blog and thanks for being there at times when no one really seemed to be around!